i named it, DONALD :)

Honestly, i kinda miss him.

How sh0uld i start it? :)

Donald is the one and only puppy left at my house. He's an active, naughty and playful yet lovable puppy among the others. However, i still don't understand why didn't he g0t pick away by this sweet lady name SANDRA who ad0pted all the other four puppies.


My m0m and sis said that he reacted weirdly, silent on the day Sandra came to my house to choose the puppies. He slept in the cage and didn't even take a glance at Sandra and her family. They then left Donald here alone with his mum.


Soon after they are g0ne, he reacted as normal as before: noisy, playful and cute ==::


Later on, i f0und out that he's kinda pity as he seems lonely, staying aside his m0ther without his siblings. So i walked out, towards the cage. I..... couldn't describe the feeling. He lo0ked at me in the eyes, so pure and inn0cent. I played with Donald everyday when i got home, before im out, during advertisement session, before i bathe, before i sleep, when i wokup. And i would like to emphasize: i hate feeding him, he's way to0 naughty =P


i like to bathe him, i gave him hot shower in the morning when mum is not ar0und at home :D
*if mum ever know i put him in our bathro0m, she would have nag and labelled me* teehee
i cant resist myself to bring him in for a hot shower as i saw him SHIVERING every time i bathe him.
Donald has big ears, like "Jerry's" ear in tom & jerry cartoon. My mum to0 likes to flip his ears as his ears are really adorable like JUMBO too!! teehee


Dad made me send him to the aunty selling gas at our taman, i kept pr0castinating, saying that i will send him as so0n as im g0ing bck to university as i had a one week mid-sem break. I only allow m0m to call the aunty Sunday morning (the day before i was supp0sed to go back to uni)


In anyway, i was glad that the aunty didn't turn up and Donald end up staying with us for one more week :)


He has the habit of sleeping at the gap in between the glass and the gate. We must always be alert and careful so that we did not injure him when we go out of our house. The only reason he likes to sleep there is because he h0pe he c0uld slip in S.I.L.E.N.T.L.Y once the glass is open. He's smart en0ugh to hide under my sofa and rest there. I just don't understand why did he cho0se the place which is filthy and small. ahahahahah :D


he would then hide under and pretend to be INNOCENT as usual. hehe


to be c0ntinued.... :)

0n d day i beg u, f0r d first time

it happened tw0 days ag0..

w0rk finishes at 5.20pm,a gurl walked out happily after punching her "jail" attendance card. *ngeeee tarat tarat........ngeee tarat tarat.........*
oh n0.. this s0und ain't go0d. she's PANIC. d reacti0n which is inevitable everytime when she enc0unter pr0blems.

what can she d0?!! the first th0ught of hers is: im s0 lucky that dad is at h0me! as usual, she can only c0nnect t0 him after few times. The c0nversation started:

"dad, i cant start my car. and i d0nt know why!"
'must be s0mthin to do with the battery...'
"im n0t sure, it s0unds weird. where are you? are u still at h0me?"
'is y0ur c0lleague still there?'
"where are you? are u still at h0me?"
'g0 nearby y0ur area t0 get a new battery.'
"the sh0ps are closed by this h0ur. where are you? are u still at h0me?"
'yes. at h0me'
"c0uld u please c0me over..?" *she needs him,desperately*
'g0 and get a new battery and fix it.'
"c0uld u please c0me over..?"
'okok la........ i will c0me n0w and find a car mechanic'

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it s0unded s0 harsh t0 her...... can u feel it..? d0 u kn0w why...? ='(

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she puts d0wn her ph0ne, standing there still for a minute. thinking again. to ask her dad n0t to come already.... although she hasn't find any s0lution.

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tw0 lorry drivers came out, asking why is she still there. i felt h0pe. although she isn't that close t0 any of th0se uncles.. she alm0st br0ke d0wn, uncle said:

"c0me, let's see what happen. if cann0t start, means battery die off already. d0 u have cables? "
'n0....cables f0r??'

they ign0red her. she's asking silly questions like she always d0 when she's panic.

An uncle drive his car over and pulls out d cables which will be used to c0nnect d battery between tw0 cars in 0rder t0 start her car.

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she calls her dad again:

"dad, are u out of h0use?"
'alm0st..'
"it's okay, an uncle helped me t0 start d car already."
'okay.. pick mum up first then g0 and fix it.'

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her heart feels empty. from inside.

her dad, her dearest, her family members.. can't even be c0mpared. with an outsider. perhaps. d0n't all pe0ple refer t0 their dearest parents when they enc0unter pr0blems?

or is she to0 BABY-FIED ??

D0es her dad d0 that t0 train his daughter t0 be independent...........?

she d0esn't kn0w.............. but all she felt is being.. neglected..

why all the other children c0uld rely on their parents........parents gave warmth to children.... h0w come she felt the other way r0und.... ='(

im s0 disapp0inted... thr0ugh this incident. which happened. on myself.

happy "I Love You" day....

猜不透
你最近時好時壞的沈默
我也不想去追問太多
讓試探為彼此的心 上了鎖


猜不透
相處會比分開還寂寞
兩個人都只是得過且過
無法感受每次觸摸
是真的 是熱的


如果忽遠忽近的灑脫
是你要的自由

那我寧願回到一個人生活

如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔
是你的藉口
那我寧願對你從沒認真過

猜不透
相處會比分開還寂寞

兩個人都只是得過且過
無法感受每次觸摸
是真的 是熱的


如果忽遠忽近的灑脫
是你要的自由

那我寧願回到一個人生活

如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔
是你的藉口
那我寧願對你從沒認真過

如果忽遠忽近的灑脫
是你要的自由

那我寧願回到一個人生活

如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔
是你的藉口
那我寧願對你從沒認真過

到底這感覺誰對誰錯
我已不想追究

越是在乎的人越是猜不透

1 day trip to kL

HEHEHE.

1. first of all, i must clarify something to myself: the purpose of going to kl today was to attend a briefing for a job. =)

and guess what....???

xin yi and i ended up shopping in times square after that till i only left RM1.00 =)

however, i was so glad that i have a TOUCH & GO card with me, so i wouldn't even bother whether i have enough money to head back to seremban =P kekekekee
o0ps..on the way back then only i realised i got no money to take bus home in case i have no transport. =P
--------------------many will be speechless----------------------------------------------
but..
but..
but...

i cant stop myself!! T.T

hahahahahahaha .............................

cant resist to temptations!!! =P

really hate liars!!

Lee Mei Chern! wakup! u wont hate liars! u hate them means u still mind!
.
.
.
i d0nt have any feelings anymore... it faded... but pain is still thr.. the same old wound...
y can't a wound be cured? !!!!!!!!
some said time heals... but...
it is not just about tapering the wound o cure by anyone... it will just be thr forever. the pain will just accumulate..... no matter how... T.T

u r the one who really wakes me up

all this while, i tot i have ad let go.. i really tot i had..

but actually im not, or nvr succeed, in givin up our relationship.

......

many said to me: " u said u wanna let go for so many times..... end up, u r returnin bck to d same sp0t after announcin EVERYTIME! listen to ur lies to urself to0 often ad! sienzz....."

......

i jz remained silent, because i know that by myself.. know what am i thinking and what am i waiting all this while... waiting for a confession again, and not dragging the relationship.

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this is the first time, i felt in love over and over and over and over again wif a guy who used to lie to me at the first place. i do not know why i do... even till now..

i know many felt shocked, but they just don't dare to mention it in front of me. =) for those who know me, i understand why would u think like that. i myself can't explain to myself.

perhaps this is LOVE?

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we broke up, yet ~~~~~~

ill still hope we could have chances to be together again..

ill still jealous cause he gets near to girls...

ill still feel hurt when he ...........................................

but i clearly know that the situation should not be like that.

..

but im still dreaming for somthing that is IMPOSSIBLE!!!

..

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i was being stupid, asking his friends what plans do they have for his birthday early in that sunday morning.. as i know they will surely feel awkward of me asking so...

but don't know why, i just couldn't bother what are they going to think bout me...

however, things will not come in the way as u think it will be smoothly..

.......

his friend told me, he is planning to go for a movie with his friends on that day.

my heart bleeds,

and wondering...

"i thought he would have thought to celebrate with me..."

oh no...... thats just what i'm dreaming by myself.......

....

....

they ask whether i would like to join.. i can say that at that m0ment, i don't feel like doing o planning anything for his birthday!! SUCKS!!

....

However, i really wanna thank those who replied me in the way that doesnt make me feel embarrassing. instead giving me fully co-operation. =) thx...

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i hate myself so much...

...

...

...

...

cause.....

i prepared lunch for him on that day, thought of sending to his workplace..

how i noe......................................................................................

i felt bad to0. for throwing away all the fo0d =)

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the ONLY word i got from my friend is "STUPID".

Ya.. i just got to admit..

=(

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haiz...

fr0m now on, i will move on. and i really will. =)

i promise!

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nitemares... tat haunt me bef0re puttinG on brAces!! =P

FirSt of aLL, i wanna thAnk g0d.. as g0d stiLL allow me to talk.... (non st0p) eveNthough i haVe ad put in a fEw rubbers in btWn my teetH.

Actually, thR shud be altoGethEr 8, but beCause of my teeth were to0 tight, they oli can stuff in 7 for me. hehehe. tATs a l0ng & problEmatic~~~~~~~~~ case for them, tiL the deNtist and nurSes g0t to give up puttin in it for me and sh00~ me away and call in the patients tat had ad queue uP EARLY IN THE MORNING.

Im n0w waitin for the orthodontist.......... tat is goin to put on the metal braces on my teeth.... She seems sweEt but..... she has a wickEd SMILE~~~~ i supposed that is a wicked smile to me. hehehe.. As she always *grin* at heR patients...

17th March 2010

1. I went to my aunt's deNtal clinic early in the morninG. All i c0uld sae was tat, im pretty nerv0us because the last time i've beEn through tooth extraction was in the year 2003. phew~~tats consider historyin my lifE ad! im n0t scare of extraCtin tooth actually since y0ung c0z i d0nt feel any pain as dentist will inject anesthetic into out gums before extrActing.....

2. HOWEVER, i remember the last time i extracted one of my tooth, i saw the dentist faced difficulties while pulling of my teeth, it seems like tat was an eneRgy consuming case to him. =P

3.He then called up0n all the nurses to.......

• stabilise my head
• stabilise my hand
• prepare more anesthetic
• more cotton
• more vaseline to smoothen the teeth and gums

4. Big pr0ject huh..? haha.. tat really scaRes me as i saW the d0c's hand was ad sHiveRing whilE extractin my tooth at tat time... th0se were the days..! kekekee...

5. todaY, when i entered the room again, d0c had decidEd to inject TWO DOSES of anesthetic on my gums. hahaha.. well, i tolD him tat im ok wif it, as long as i d0nt feel the pain!

agAIn...

history seems like repeating~~

hehehehe. the dentist called his assistants again to: STABILISE MY HEAD. he said to the nurses: her head kept movinG to the diRection im pulling, i cant extraCt at all.. haahahaha.. (embarrasment) but.... i as0 cant st0p my heAd fr0m moving, hahaha.. the tooth was still attached to my gums, wat can i do wof tat reAction????? wakakakakaka =P

6. After extractin, here... the m0ment has come.. they put in the small rubbeRs in btwn my teeth, it realy realy HURTS..

i un derstand tat is is very difficuLt to put in the rubbers especially in bTwn my tIght TTTTEEEEEEEEETH, but cant they be a little m0re gentlE..... s0b

*im payin for it anyway! muahahahaha*

000.. n0w i undersTand, its not easy for those who had undergone all these torturing EXPERIENCES.

c0uldnt imagine h0w will i fAce the orthodontist on m0n...........................

as the nurses said to me, be preparEd to get m0re ULCERS when u work wif the orthodontist so0nn...... *ngek ngek ngek.....*

mum........ i cant sleep weLL at all this few days, cant chew properly even before puttin the braces.. and eventhough the food is consider kinda soft..... sob.. mum....

wat can i eat anym0re............................................starving.